Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Anything but ordinary






There are not words to say how much I want to see this in real life. I find out in a few more days if I get to go to southern India!

Today I had an interview with the two faculty leaders that are going to be taking everyone on the trip. I thought it went pretty well, but I hate when I'm asked why I deserve to go. I mean, I'm sure I'd like to go just as much as anyone else, and I don't think I do deserve it more than anyone else. But I want it more than anyone else. Just talking about it made me giddy. I'm already so invested in this...I hope I get accepted! I didn't even know I wanted this so badly. To think that in January of next year, I could be stepping foot into the Indian ocean! Or walking in some of the oldest temples complexes in the world...Or doing yoga in a real ashram!!! *Sigh* I'm feeling pretty good about it and I've been sending good vibes out to the universe, so it's just a matter of playing the waiting game now.





















Today I opened a Dove chocolate and the quote inside was: "Patience is a virtue". Perhaps the universes way of reminding me to enjoy the moment? Lately I haven't been appreciating the present moment because I've been too busy concentrating on summer. I can't wait to be home and my anxiousness means that the days are even longer than they already are. So, I've been trying to just take it a day at a time and have fun in the last few weeks of school. I'm trying to appreciate the ordinary things in my life, like the blooming dogwoods, mountain views, small salamanders, or moments of complete and utter joy!



Monday, April 6, 2009

Creativity!?

In an effort to be more creative and spur some writing, my friend John and I have decided to get a collection of ten words each week and write a vignette, a little short story. Anyway, here are last weeks words, which we got from the woman who works at the local bookstore I frequent. I'm providing the definitions because some of them are really weird.

LIST:
argon: a colorless, inert gaseous element constituting 1% of the earth's atmosphere
perpetual: lasting for eternity
cupcake: a small cake
windcheater: a windbreaker
viscous: of a glutinous nature or consistency, thick, adhesive
Seder: a ceremonial dinner held on the 1st night of Passover
fitchy: the point of the sword at the bottom of the cross
spilikin: from the children's game 'spilikins and jackstraws' (involves throwing straws on the ground and trying to pick them up w/in a time limit)
checkrow: one of a number of rows of trees or plants with equal distance between each other
klatch: an informal, impromptu social gathering

And here's what I wrote when I used them in my story. I just started writing, and this is where it ended up. Definitely unexpected, but I was pleased with the way it turned out.

Strange Seder by Jennifer Foley

I had a feeling it was going to be a strange Seder. I knew something wasn’t going to go well before we even walked into the house. I mean, first of all, we never go over to Aunt Goldberg’s house. Her mom scares the kids, the way she lurches around and throws her wrist in everyone’s face. As if we all weren’t already transfixed by the faded tattoo on her arm. And, even worse, she always starts swearing at me in Yiddish—like I betrayed her and all the other survivors by marrying someone who wasn’t Jewish. He had nothing to do with the Holocaust and I decided a long time ago that the Jewish faith had nothing to do with me.

We pulled into the long, winding driveway and I stared listlessly at the seemingly perpetual checkrows of fir trees. They looked distinctly out of place without snow surrounding them and Christmas lights adorning them. I always did think it was ironic that my Jewish aunt and uncle managed a Christmas tree farm. I told Rick this, and he laughed, saying something about how people had to make a living as he slid into a parking spot in front of the bare ranch house.

The sky was churning above us, a viscous soup of storm clouds the color of a fresh bruise. There was a cool breeze coming from the direction of poultry plant, and I held my breath, an old habit. It took me a second to realize that I didn’t smell the usual fetid aroma that comes from such a place. I figured that maybe the owners were Jewish, and had taken off for the Seder.

“Don’t expect anything too remarkable,” I sighed as I grabbed my windcheater and stepped out of the car.

“Jude, don’t worry. What could they possibly dislike?” Rick grabbed the cupcakes he made and stood in front of me, smiling like an overgrown boy scout. I practically snorted with laughter when I looked at him.

“It’s Judith around my family, and first of all, you’re not Jewish,” I reached over to him and tucked his cross necklace under his shirt, “and that fitchy cross you’re wearing probably won’t go over well. I wasn’t kidding when I told you they’re religious. Second, you brought cupcakes to Seder.”

He just smiled at me, kissed me on the cheek and started for the door. I loved that he didn’t care about what my family thought, but I was nearly cringing just thinking about what they would say. I squared my shoulders and walked forward. I probably looked like I was headed to my last meal on death row.

We walked in and, strangely enough, it was quiet. The kid’s spilikins and jackstraws were strewn across the kitchen floor and there was still matzo scattered across the counter. I mean, this was just a klatch, nothing formal, but usually you couldn’t get a moment of peace in this house. I could hear the TV on in the next room, spitting out the usual blathering.

“An argon leak from a local poultry plant has affected nearly a third of Cook County. Please keep in mind this odorless gas is extremely dangerous and used as an asphyxiant…”

I stopped listening to the anchor on TV at the same time Rick let the cupcakes crash to the floor. There was the family, laying inert and lifeless in the family room, looking both peaceful and stricken at the same time.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Strange Blessings

Since I’ve last written, I’ve actually grown up! I am now 20 years old. Two decades! That’s a pretty solid and intimidating number.

I feel like I’m finally able to breathe again.

In retrospect, the week doesn’t look so bad. But I felt pretty crazed for most of it. Thankfully, I finished the two tests I was dreading, got through the longest lab session of my life, and registered for classes. I’ve had all afternoon to myself, so I spent some time sitting in the sunshine reading, listening to music, and reflecting.

I felt like I really had to fight to stay optimistic this week. Usually, I’m the most optimistic person I know, so I felt a little bewildered when I suddenly felt so gloomy. Whatever funk I was in didn’t last very long, since the minute Thursday came and the sun came out, I was my normal happy go-lucky self.

Also, I came across a quote that helped me put things in perspective. It’s from Primo Levi’s book Survival in Auschwitz, which I haven’t actually read, but it was mentioned in another book I’m working on. “It is lucky that it is not windy today,” Levi writes. “Strange, how in some way, one always has the impression of being fortunate, how some chance happening, perhaps infinitesimal, stops us crossing the threshold of despair and allows us to live”. It just reminds me that there is always something to be happy about, no matter how small.

So, in order to lift my spirits, I made a list of things I’m grateful for and things to be happy about. Here it is!

- Grass that is soft and not itchy.
- Exchanging letters
- The company of good friends
- Not being raised in a polygamist cult
- Towels that are fresh out of the dryer
- Singing along
- The Big Dipper on clear nights
- Random acts of kindness
- Unexpected phone calls from the people I miss dearly
- Supportive parents
- Books of every kind!
- Spring and everything about it
- Baby animals
- Chocolate
- Strange blessings